That this year is so much more eventful than the last? Not good events either. Now I know my life doesn't suck and I have no reason to start self loathe or that dreadful thing called self pity. Most definately I'm not going to start those regretful things either because my step mother keeps reminding me that I'm just too "positive". I guess I could be perceived as one of those people that are always smiling even if I'm not really happy. I should be happy, I just went to an awesome Suns game last night but no. Yeah Okay hmm, now to vent about which I don't normally speak of, First there was my uncle's death. Of course I was sad but I didn't know the guy that well and it just made me like go frittzy because all my family was mourning, sobbing their heads off, and I could hardly even shed a tear of pity. Next came the Ex Step Bitch of utter destruction, my Father can't pay for my sister's teeth to get fixed or for my new glasses... but he can pay for a half of a kid's braces even after a dna test he came out inconclusive and his mom [step bitty] got about a million bucks in inheritence money? Oh and my supposed half brother is only eight, he's just going to get braces again if he gets them this early.

There was definately more along the way involving my mother becoming addicted to black jack, drinking and critizing my driving when I only have my permit but the details aren't important. For the most recent of them all. My Father beat up my awesome step Mother because Evil ex step wench, he broke her rib, told her he was going to kill her several times then tried to throw countless objects at her. All of which he did to my own mother when I was younger yet it included a coffee table. The thing that got me most was the fact that I wasn't there, I had a chance to be but got chicken of their bickering and didn't want to be in the middle of it. My father would never do such a thing infront of his older children he tried so hard to gain our respect after getting rid of his other wife, even if he attempted I could have helped her. Well after a bit I guess my step Mother got a hold of the neighbors and they called the cops. Right now he has a huge chance of going to jail and I still love him because I know he has huge rage issues and has been to anger management a few times.

It's just I know my dad is a great guy but at the snap of his ex-wife's fingers he's practically powerless because she has his "child". I'm just very remorseful right now and don't have an idea what to do.